Along the way...

We'd be held...

2006-12-28T19:43:00.000-08:00

Held ...

I have bin resseling with trusting God a lot lately...
Not the 'why' of sovering it self made me wonder, but 'where were You, and what does trusting You mean?'
'Why do you say in Your woord 'don't be afraid? What does that really mean?'
But God really helped me out here.
He told me this:

Who told us we'd be rescued?
What has changed and why should we be saved from nightmares?
We're asking why this happens To us who have died to live?
It's unfair.

This is what it means to be held.
How it feels when the sacred is torn from your life And you survive.
This is what it is to be loved.
And to know that the promise was
When everything fell we'd be held.

When everything around us is unsave, ore when we live in pain, sadness ore are grieving. He will hold us in His arms...

My brother is coming!!!

2006-11-04T03:11:00.000-08:00

I just talked to my brother.... he is in Thailand!!!!! And tomorrow he is gone be here, with me, and than I can see him, touch him, hug him, oh my goodness...

Bro, I can't wait....!!!!!!

the one you love...

2006-10-20T17:20:00.000-07:00

Mam, ik mis je zo...

If you can't be with the ones you love, love the ones your with!!

I miss my family a lot. More than normal...
I think because I realias that I won't be home for a long time.
Because I know that it's not easy at home, thinks don't go that well. And I should be there!!!
But than, God told me to be here, in Thailand.

He most have a plan with my familie, He most know, He does care.

I'm all alone on they other side of the world. With a new familie.
And I pray for love... I need to be close to people, they need to be to. And aldo I can't be with the ones I love, I could always pray for so match love for the ones I'm with. So I won't be so alone...

Home of the Open Heart - YWAM Thailand

2006-10-17T03:44:00.000-07:00

Thailand's Department of Public Health reports that per capita, Thailand has the most HIV/AIDs cases in the world. This translates into more than 14,000 AIDs orphans per year. Many of these will be HIV positive. Chiang Rai, one of the provinces worst hit by the Aids crisis, had no home for HIV positive babies. Project L.I.F.E. stepped in to meet that need with the Home of the Open Heart.

Opened in December 2000, its heart purpose is to give HIV positive babies a loving home until their HIV status is determined. We also provide small group homes for babies who cannot be cared for by relatives.

Home of the Open Heart is also committed to caring for HIV+ babies until they die. If a baby converts to HIV negative and is able to be adopted, Home of the Open Heart will release the child to have a family of their own!

Our mission is to assist families affected by HIV/AIDs, through education, orphan care within the home and within the community, community visits leading to income-generation projects, and mother/child respite care.

Child, you still have my heart...

2006-10-09T08:15:00.000-07:00

Four days now I worked at Baan Nam Jai (childrenshome)... and it was lovely. The children are so sweet and beautiful!
This is Hope, isn't see so beautiful?! I'm sure I'm gone love them like crazy. Not a problem!!

But than, it made me think of my children in Africa.... it makes me a bit sade. I miss them sooooo match!! Will I ever meet them again? Will they still know me? Will they still be alive? I don't know....

You still have my heart...

Love you Kylie, Love you Tando, love you Victor, Love you Tabysing, Love you Zoeki, Tjakanie, Vica.
Love you beautiful Annatemba, little Sesipo.
My dear Chris, Allowethu, Buhle, Sweet Sissi Cosa, quite Litha. Alshley, Asipee.
Love you Fuzie, Toets.... Timna and all they other beautiful ones!! I love you...

your mama noenes

Thailand...

2006-10-02T01:39:00.000-07:00

So, I'm back in Thailand.
A few days I arrived. And from there it all has bin so unreall. Am I really back?
I guess I am!

A lot happend since than.
Lewis, Grayces cat (7 weeks old) roles in the house.
My first day in Thailand I had to save a froge. He was walking around with it in his mouth. The froge was still alive. So after a fight with the little cat and a bleeding finger, the froge was saved and on his way to freedom.

I went back to the base. It was so weart to be back there. There is no DTS!! Where is Kim? Will? Katie? Shane? Everyone? Anyone!?
I did see Fha, Pyarate, Peaw and Pi Soekam. And Num ofcourse. That was nice. Can you believe it!! This is gone be my new home.... what where they thinking???? Heheheheh, oh well, we will see!!!

I live in Thailand after all....

I already made new friends! That is quite new for me, normaly that takes for ever. I finaly met Sarah in reall live. It is a big etfanture to get to know here! But I like it. We already talked on they MSN for months, but now I finely met here!

And than, I met Jenny, my neighbour. She is so nice. Can't wait to spend more time with here!!!

Other than that, not match changed. We still eat rice every day. The Thai still speak Thai. Big C is still big and a way of losing all the facts of Thailand and just go for it! Bandu market is still there, full of live and so many things I never sow before, even after 6 months!!

What did chance do, I have my one bike!!! And I love it!!! And I am staff now, in sted of student. And Thailand is my new home now....

My love...afscheid nemen bestaat niet!

2006-09-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

Mijn lieve lieverdjes, voordat ik ga nog dit!;

Afscheid nemen bestaat niet ....
Ik ga wel weg maar verlaat je niet
Mijn lief, je moet me geloven Al doet het pijn
Ik wil dat je me los laat
En dat je morgen weer verder gaat
Maar als je eenzaam of bang bent
Zal ik er zijn

Ik kom als de wind die je voelt en de regen
Volg wat je doet als het licht van de maan
Zoek me in alles dan kom je me tegen
Fluister mijn naam
En ik kom eraan

Zie wat onzichtbaar is
Wat je gelooft is waar
Open je ogen maar
En dan zal ik bij je zijn
Alles wat jij moet doen
Is mij op m’n woord geloven

Afscheid nemen bestaat niet

Ik kom als de wind die je voelt en de regen
Volg wat je doet als het licht van de maan
Zoek me in alles dan kom je me tegen
Fluister mijn naam
En ik kom eraan

Kijk in de lucht
Kijk naar de zee
Waar je ook zult lopen, ja, ik loop met je mee
Iedere stap en ieder moment
Waar je dan ook bent
Wat je ook doet
Waar je ook gaat
Wanneer je me nodig hebt
Fluister gewoon mijn naam
En ik kom eraan

Afscheid nemen bestaat niet...

Soraya en Selina, love you more than anything!

I don't know how to say goodbye...

2006-09-22T14:04:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking..... Time comes near to say goodbye... And I feel like I have to cry...

Leave everything you know and love behind, to go and be somewhere new. Knowing you will not see your loved ones for a long time....
Did I pack everything????
Did I say goodbye to everyone???
Oh my goodness, it's hard!!
Eaven do I know there will be friends waiting on they other side. I don't know how to say goodbye....

I hope I do this right, because I can only do it one time!!!!

Let's never forget...

2006-09-11T13:39:00.000-07:00

Let's never forget.....

Lets never forget.....

September 11....2001

My soul waits

2006-09-04T10:49:00.000-07:00

"My soul wait for the Lord, more than a watchmen wait for the morning" Psalm 130:6

At they end off the day, it's only You that can do it. It's all in You and true You...

Somebody sade to me 'God hasn't said that life was going to be easy, but that He will be with us always untill they end of age'
Isn't that all we need to know really?! Why do we worry so match? Wo do we think it's never gone be oke? Why do we eaven worry about anyting? We are humon, yes, but we need to look at Him... pout every little worry, every pain, every tear, every thougt, every bid off shame in His hand.
I'm not there. But I long for that. And this are my thoughts I want to share with you. What do you think?
---My soul wait's for You---

Cause I know my God saved the day...
And I know His word never Fails...
And I know my God made a way for me...
Salvation is here!!! -Hillsong

I created a Slide Show! Check it out!

2006-08-21T01:49:00.000-07:00

I still believe....

2006-08-17T14:10:00.000-07:00

And when the end is near

I just lose all words

And wait with fear

The saidness fills my heart

when I think of you

soon we will be forever a part

I still pray that you might see one day

I still believe

I still hope that you will find the way

To my God who made and loves you dear

waiting for you

to serender and laying down your sickness and fear

Just come and rest a bit

in His arms you will be fine

to Him you need to commit

So you can lay down and sleep in peace

He loves you... waits for you

and prepairs for you a heavenly feast

Today, one day after I placed this poem, Marc died.

18 years, to jong!!!!

I love you Marc....

My live behind the computer.....

2006-07-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

Well, I can truely say my live kind off has a new side. I live behind my computer... (ask my sisters) And I love it!
I have to keep up a lot off email, to arange a lot off stoff. Spend lot's off time on skype.... talking with my friends all ofer the world... I'm working on a webside that is gone be running soon (www.abouteunice.nl) You can already find it on the net right now.
And I keep up with all the stoff that's going on on they internet. Do you think that's bad?

Home is where the heart is...

2006-07-15T02:05:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone,

What's up? I'm in the Netherlands! And it's good to be home.
My mom makes the best food ever! And everything is clean and comfortable.
Since i've been home I wonder what 'home' is?
And where my home is?! Do you have that too sometimes? I am dutch, and proud of it too. But my life will be in Thailand. So where is my home? For now, my heart is with my family in the Netherlands. But my life will be in Thailand. But isn't home where the heart is?

I want to thank Kim Kristina Bjoerk, without you this message wouldn't have been possible....Thank you!;)

Punishing a new side!

2006-06-13T00:10:00.000-07:00

Hey, this will be my new website, so you can follow me where ever I go...

Hey, dit is mijn nieuwe website, zodat ik overal achtervolgd kan worden door mijn vrienden en familie.!